Recently I went to the first meeting of a group of people wanting to set up a new comic book.
Ciara had spotted the wanted ad at our friendly neighbourhood comic shop, and had originally said that she would go along to it if I did.
That'll be a fun thing for us both to do, I thought.
Obviously, Ciara didn't go at the last minute. I should have seen it coming. She's busy enough as it is, and has never before showed any inclination towards writing a comic.
I think she was just saying it to encourage me to do it, knowing that it's the sort of thing I'd want to do, but wouldn't (after an experience at a stage writing group I used to go to a few years ago that I just found thoroughly depressing).
My wife is always looking out for me, and helping me onto the right path. Like a mysterious guardian angel character in a film, that just appears in someone's life at a difficult time and nudges them towards getting back on track.
Not that Ciara has just appeared. Or that I'm having a difficult time right now.
I recently finished my book though, and am currently sending it to agents in the hope of selling it. This means I will have a period of 6-8 weeks to fill until the standardised rejection letters start flooding in. I need a new project to fill my time with that isn't starting on my next book, and this could be it.
With it being a group activity, and less solitary than writing a novel, I should also not spend forever fine tuning it until I am satisfied (like taking 5 years to write one book).
Also, it means I can double on projects and use it to make a new friend (or two).
So, I went along to the group, ready to be outgoing and like some sort of new friend magnet.
My approach going in was to be like an upbeat, slightly madcap Jack Black-style character. I had planned to be slightly too loud and too overbearing, in the hope that this would be mistaken for awesomeness and lead to some of the other people there being interested in being pals with the stranger acting a bit oddly. I had thought about giving everyone hilarious ironic nicknames from the beginning - so if there's a big guy there I can call him Lil' Mikey, and if there's a little guy there I can call him Big Stevie, and if there's a really quite, calm guy there I can call him Mad Dog.
And they'll all probably call me Darth Che, or C-Money, or Captain Yikes. Or something.
And then I arrived. There were four other people there, all of them very very reserved and quiet and ever so slightly nervous looking, and two of them so young that I was slightly concerned that trying to become their friend would make me look suspicious to the point that I may be placed on some sort of register.
I can't do my Jack Black thing now, I thought, for two very good reasons.
1) It is not appropriate to the situation, and they will probably arrange future meetings for a different time and venue and not tell me.
2) I am not a Jack Black guy. Where as he looks like a bundle of slightly aggressive fun wrapped up in infectious enthusiasm, if I try and Black it I will look more like some sort of paranoid schizophrenic who is being hysterically hostile and calling people by oddly insulting names.
I'll do what I normally do, I thought. I'll just be silent, stare at people intently like I'm really interested in what they're saying (even though I know it actually looks like I am staring at them like I want to set them on fire with the concentrated power of my mind), and that they'll slowly realise over a number of years that I am actually kind of okay.
Like with Morgan Freeman and Tim Robbins in the Shawshank Redemption.
Trying to make friends was possibly my most ill-conceived idea yet.
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